Entries by Symphony

I know you've been reading my blog.  My question is WHY.  Just like I know you've been stalking my MySpace page.  Is there some reason behind it?

What are you looking for?

You've got what you wanted.  What you were lurking and slinking around for.  You know what I mean.  Women ultimately understand each other.  Like I said, you got what you wanted... and what's funny is it's far more than you've bargained for..just you wait and see.  It all seems shiny and new now.  Wait til you get a glimpse of what really lies beneath.

So again I ask: What are you here for?  Go enjoy it while it lasts and leave me alone.

Lentamente certamente

Lentamente certamente
Cammino a partire da
quell'vecchio amore disperato e dazed
preso nel labirinto di amore
la mania pazzesca di amore
gli è stato pensato buono
gli è stato pensato reale
gli è stato pensato
ma non era amore

Non so appena
Dove dovrei andare
Così
Lentamente certamente
Cammino a partire da
interessato
undeserving
costantemente danneggiandolo amore
abbandonandolo amore
avete detto ho detto che abbiamo detto
ma

Lentamente certamente
Cammino a partire da
amore confusionario
amore d'abuso
abuso dell'amore
ciò non può essere

Lentamente certamente
Cammino a partire da
interessato
undeserving
costantemente danneggiandolo amore

Non so appena
dove dovrei andare
No
Non so appena
sappia sanno sanno
Dove dovrei andare
così

Lentamente certamente
Cammino a partire da
quell'vecchio amore disperato e dazed
preso nel labirinto di amore
la mania pazzesca di amore

gli è stato pensato buono
gli è stato pensato reale
gli è stato pensato
ma non era amore

Non conosco appena dove andare
Così

Lentamente certamente
Cammino a partire da
Cammino a partire da
Lentamente certamente
Cammino a partire da amore
Oh
lentamente certamente un punto alla volta
ma certamente
Passerò il vecchio amore da parte
ed amilo

It's been a while now.

I still think about you. Wonder where you are and how you've been.

I wonder how many children you have now and if you're still married.

 I mostly wonder why we grew apart.

Seems like a life time ago. I mean, I am your son's godmother. I haven't seen him since he was two. I know he's in good hands. He has you. I keep thinking back to that time...I wonder about when things started to change. I mostly wonder why. Me being who I am, am readily asking "What did I do?"

We've conversed via email one time in the last ten years. You've never seen my oldest child. I'm not sure if you know I have another. You were there for me and me for you. We were great friends once.

Common friends don't seem to know where you are or how you're doing.

 Relatives haven't seen you in a long time. I saw your sister a while back; she said you were doing okay.

I remember how young we all were. You were strong. Stronger than I am today. All of that on your plate, with a child. Amazing.

I thought about the brawl on the bridge the other day and had to smile... The thought of “Dance dance dance dance for Jesus” cracks me up everytime. I remembered that crazy ass party at your house that got everyone extremely drunk and the house raided.

I remembered how much I thought I was in love with DW and you were there for me when things fell apart. I remember your support and laughter about RL & RB.  I wonder now what you words would have been when I was going through things with WP, RF, CG, JO, JC, AA, AA, DR . I wonder what your thoughts would have been when KW and I had that falling out. I just wish...

Know this: No matter what, we're family. Blood will always be thicker than water. But more than that, you are my friend.